I've Never (In such a long time)

Well its been awhile that I came out of my cooped up shell of security. I finally found a reason to say it once again (and maybe, never again in a long time...again). I took the chance. I gave it a shot because I thought it was worth it. Too bad it seems like it will all go to waste. To say it to a person and really mean it makes me feel soooo alive though. The most I've been in years. Seemed to have forgotten the feeling. But now I painfully remember why I chose to forget it. Sometimes its just so hard to admit to yourself.

Blah. I should just get one with my life. Sometimes I don't mind feeling THAT alive. Especially when you expect nothing in return.